One of the conclusions we arrived at through our series on suffering was that suffering (if nothing else) certainly clarifies things in our lives.
I believe crisis, pressure and stress have the same effect. For example, for the last four weeks, I have been working three jobs (two jobs starting six weeks ago). I wrap up one of those jobs later this afternoon, but the two-job thing looks to be my “new normal”.
I have recognized that some things have changed in my life in the last six weeks. The value of sleep has gone WAY UP! :-) Working out has become a non-negotiable – I need the energy and I have to take care of myself. Time with Dani (my wife, for the uninformed) is now at a premium with our often conflicting work-schedules (she works 7-5 M-F and I often work a 5-10 or 5-11 at Starbucks). So, she sees me in the AM when I am groggy and I see her late at night when she is groggy.
Time spent with friends over morning coffee and lunch has become more difficult as there are simply less and less empty spots on my calendar. I have begun journaling, reading Scripture, and praying with more frequency and intensity because (frankly) I am more desperate for God’s presence and work in my life in the midst of this chaotic time.
Looking through the lens of my own life, I am seeing crisis clarify my values and intentions. One of my friends consistently reminds me “actions prove intentions. Don’t tell me what you intended to do; show me what you did do and I can see your actual intentions.”
As we move closer and closer to Good Friday and Easter, I am reflecting on the fact that Jesus had very clear intentions, He knew who he was, and He was living with purpose. When the crisis, stress, and suffering came in his life, Jesus’ true character came out. ”Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” His true intentions came out. ”Father, if this cup can pass from me, let it. Yet, let your will, not mine, be done.” His true values came out. ”For the Son of Man came to seek and save the lost.”
While many of us would argue afterwards (“I’m sorry I said or did that; I didn’t mean to. I don’t know what came over me. I was really stressed and just lost it.”), I would say who we really are ALWAYS comes out in the moments of stress, crisis, and suffering. If we have realized we don’t like who we are in those moments, maybe this Holy Week is a good time to begin submitting ourselves anew to God’s presence and work in our lives. Ask and apply yourself to His transformative work in your life. He was a man of true intention, character and value. He can make you that kind of person as well.







